Friday, 5 June 2009

Thursday, 4 June 2009

^^

Happy birthday Nikki! I love you.

Tuesday, 2 June 2009

Science

I have a science GCSE exam tomorrow!
And I've barely revised. They're well important and like go on your CV and stuff for jobs.
I'm not gonna do well.
But tonight and today I'm gonna revise all I can. I need a good grade in science. I already got an A* on my coursework so it's going well.

AAAHHHH!

fuck

I think I'm starting to fall for this Jake.
I just can't seem to stop staring at him when we are on webcam together and ahh fuck. I don't wanna like him.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!

How can I stop this guys, please?

Let's just say

I wasn't happy last night. For many reasons.

- This Jake guy is getting to me, he is a big flirt and a bit of a twat but I kinda don't want his crush thing on me to stop but I know it should cause I shouldn't lead him on. I must talk to him about it all before I fall on my face.

- My best friend Cameron has just fucked off cause of his girlfriend Jasmine. I feel like I've lost him already and I really don't like it.

- I'm scared I have feelings for my friend who's name I won't mention because I don't want to admit it might be true. I hope this blows over.

Monday, 1 June 2009

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My stomach feels like its swelling from the pain and upset I am feeling right now.

To follow up

with this situation with Jake.
I met up with Thea and Kate yesterday and decided to talk to Thea about him. She had no clue as to what had gone on. She said she really, seriously doesn't like him.
I didn't believe her but she said no really I don't. But I don't think I'm gonna do anything about it cause I don't think I really like him in that way.
I told them that he wanted to meet up with me and a different park and they were like go Jess and I was like nono.

We met Mattie and Cameron (+ new girlfriend) and Thea and Kate left me with them to go see Jake and stuff.
I went for a walk with Mattie and we had an amazing chat with him it was amazing, I love Mattie so much.
Then Kate and Thea came back and told me Jake was stoned as, I was so glad I didn't go. Never knew what he would of tried.
Mattie said if he would of laid a finger on me then he would of gone crazy, bless him.

So then me, Thea, Mattie and Kate chatted for ages.
Kate cried cause of her twat boyfriend D:
Then Cameron and Jaz (girlfriend) found us and we had to leave. I didn't want to leave cause I had an amazing day!

Now I am back at school and it's shite! But only 7 weeks till summer holidays :D:D
How is everyone hanging?