I'm

a bit sad :/

Tuesday

So yeah, it's Tuesday which means I'm going to my Dad's tonight and will be there till Thrusday morning which also means I probably, might not be online as much as I normally am.

Cause at my Dad's house we only have one laptop between the 6 of us, I will only get like an hour on it if I'm lucky.

Not that many people even read my blog to be honest. But just saying,

I must go now, school and all! I need to find some black socks! That's always the hardest thing for me to do in the mornings ¬¬

Goodbyeeeeeeeee, have a nice day ^^

I've realised again

That I don't know if I wanna be with you anymore! Cause what if we do ever break up and drift apart we could both lose this amazing, close friendship we have now. I would prefer to keep that then be more than friends and could have the risk of loosing you in a worser way D:

Well today

was pretty shite.

I got up at like 7 and got ready for school and then I had Science which was a doss actually, then I.C.T which we couldn't really do cause the servers are down so we had to do our pretend business stuff and that was crap. Then I had P.E where we had to go down to the local bowling alley, I mean c'mon bowling isn't P.E, stupid teachers, I also hate bowling and got a grand total of 56, LOL. But I did better than a lot of people in our group.

And now I'm home wondering what the hell I'm going to do with my evening as I have nothing to do!?

Any idea's guys?

LOL

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I'm

now watching HSM3 ;D;D;D;D;D amazing movie!

And I had a lovely day out with Eliott, Thea and Kate(: I'm real upset about going back to school tomorrow but oh well, have to get back into school mode.

I really have nothing interesting to say right now?

urgh

everything and everyone is so boring tonight!

Cameron isn't online cause he's at a gig and my bestests aren't online either!? What is happening to my friends?!

But it seems that a lot of people are commenting me on bebo tonight, how lovely of them ^^

SHITE, school in like under two days and I reallyreally don't wanna go, I enjoy the holidays so much and school is just so crap and serious lately :/

I haven't printed out any of my photographs yet, I don't think I'm even gonna bother to be honest.

RANT OVER GUYSSS.

My day

was pretty lovely.

Met up with Cameron, Nikki, Thea and Mattie. (some other people as well at some point)

It was a wonderful day and we also saw this

:

In the park and it was well weird! It was like a big condom/bin bag :L. So I decided I must take a picture of it! ;D

I'm

crying my eyes out right now.

OMG

I MISS YOU.

I wish he would get his arse online.

The Black Kids remind me of you so much, I love you to bits.

I've realised

I think I'm scared of love and what it may bring.

Anyway on a lighter note, I found my camera and did my photography coursework this morning so that is out of the way! Yaaay!(:

I'm doing nothing today, I might invite Thea over who knows. I had a lovely chat with MattieBizzle last night which was kinda weird to be honest but I felt shite and he cheered me up in the weirdest of ways.

But yeah, hope everyone is having a lovely day!(:

GOODBYE LOVERS.

shiteshiteshite

I think I do really like someone else now and whenever he isn't there to talk to I feel so shit and I can't stop thinking about him.

His voice, his hair, his silly glasses. I want him now.

I sound like such a hoe now but he was always there we've been best friends for a while now and today we met up and everything has changed. He told me he loved me many times and we didn't stop cuddling. I miss him.

I have a feeling I won't see him for a while :/

I actually feel like crying right now.

Pictures from the sleepover

Nomnomnom, well there ya' go! I had a lot of fun today meeting all those guys, there all amazing!

Jessica is signing off!

half term

It's been good so far, not the best and I still haven't done my photography coursework :
Today I'm going to meet Cameron, Gryphen, Kate, Eliott and Chris in town. Hopefully we'll have a good time.
I had a sleepover on tuesday night had some alcohol not much but we tried to spin and drink it upside to make it have more of an effect.
The pictures will be up soon, as soon as someone decides to put them up!
ANYWAY! I must be getting ready nowwwwwwwwwww!(:

FUCK SAKE

So yeah, today I was meant to be meeting Chris and Thea in town. But I woke up text her to see what times and then she says I can but I have no money and I was like for fuck sake! Cause I'm not going into town just me and Chris it'd be awkward. So now I'm really angry cause this means I have to stay in all day again.

So far this holiday has pretty shitshitshitshitshitshitshitshit, except for last night with Ollie (L)

Welll

Valentines Day (The day of fgrdfsakEVIL) is over for us Britonnnsss.

I'm currently on msn talking to my good old friend Ollie ;D May be for a while longer me thinks.

I just watched a lot of Skins the old ones (H)

So YAH!

Pictures from last night(;

This was possibly one of the funniest nights ever, a bit lesbian like but aren't we all (;

I LOVE YOU GUYS.

(L)

Happy Valentines Day everyone!

I've realised that there is loads of different kinds of love and it's hard to explain how much you actually love someone cause you can't actually tell.

So like there is family love.

There is Best Friend love.

There is just friend love.

There is the likelike love.

And you can never explain who you love most but we do actually love some certain people more than overs even though we never wanna admit it to hurt people's feelings.

So anyway, I don't know if you understood my rant at all?

But that is over now and right now I'm sitting in bed with my pj's still and its 1pm. Lazy Jessica! But oh well. I have nothing to do, I'm not allowed out cause my Nan is coming over and I haven't seen her in a while.

Tomorrow hopefully I will be doing something with friends, I think I may write my besties Valentines cards ;D Just for the sake of it and we all don't have Valentines anyway.

RANTS OVER.

HAVE A GREAT VALENTINES!

Cameron's latest text:

I tglnk twar fnu! You be7t kefp textgni or I wik die yah g :P I loue xou tbi xo

Any translations?

(L)

I just had one of the funniest nights ever! I love you Nikki and Thea (L)

Cameron has also been sending me funny texts cause he's drunk AGAIN! LOL.

Pictures from tonight up later when I'm not this tired ^___^

Everything has turned out okay

I think?

As soon as I had this huge hissy fit he left me a comment on bebo and we're been texting all day. I just watched Skins (L) It's amazing.

I'm feel well happy but I also feel like crying :/

It's funny

How your actions reflects what my mood is completely.

I just thought

Whatever we do could have the biggest impact on someone else.

Like if I decided to say something to this boy this will change everything for the bad or good. I don't know if you get me?

But if I did say something I could freak him out and he'll decide to hate me forever or he will think it's complete and utter sweetness and love me forever.

I like the second option better(:
JESS NEEDS A LIFE.

'But our love, is louder than words.'-Bloc Party. Sunday.

Not the happiest girl in the world.

Well this boy yeah? I can't take it anymore he's got my number and he just came online for two seconds and went off again and it actually sent me over the edge, it was like I was so close to talking to him again and then he dissapears. So I've crying for the last hour straight because I'm an obsessive, paranoid teenager who is insecure with everything.
I feel worthless and not good enough for anyone.

I feel I should give up on this guy, but he was also one of the sweetest guys I've ever met and I don't want to stop thinking about him.

But on the other end he is being a complete arse and making me feel like shite.

What to do?

THIS IS WAY

I TRY NOT TO END UP LIKING SOMEONE.

I GO CRAZY and not the happy type of crazy.

I NEED A FUCKING LIFE

I can't stop thinking about him and I'm getting so uber paranoid, I text him and he hasn't replied and he isn't online! D:
I'm pretty lost without him right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm tempted to text him again but that would be clingy so I won't D:

This isn't making me happy.

ahahah

Ever since I've met you, I don't find anyone else attractive anymore >.<

Aaawww ^___^

I think I've met someone and he's amazing (L)

I thought things were going rock bottom and then he comes along and I've haven't been happier.

I've like only just met him, but it's been lovely.

I stayed up till nearly 2am talking to him on msn and we both didn't want to get off cause we were having such a lovely conversation ^___^

I really like him but I don't think anything will happen.

I'm so glad he came into my life two days ago(:

Yaaaay!

Well I another good day yesterday! Thanks Thea, Nikki, Kate, Eliott, Jackson, Amelia & Gabby.

I also saw, Amy, Sam, Mattie & Cory! Who I haven't seen in a longlong time so it was very nice!(:

I feel well sick right now to be honest, I was off on Friday and I'm not happy about going in tomorrow but oh well only one week and then HOLIDAYSHOLIDAYS! Yayayayay(:

I better have a wonderful holiday or otherwise I may hurt someone LOL.

And then last night I had a really good conversation with this boy and it was so wonderful seriously, and he has a bit of a thing for cats LOLOLOL.

But oh my it was adorable and then I watched My Neighbour Totoro.

And it's adorable as well.

So I've had an alright weekend all in all!

Today I've been doing coursework and such and my little sister has her friends over who I do not like :L

BYEBYBEYEBEBEBEYBBYEYB.

My night

Was bloody hilarious to be quite honest!

Funnyfunnyfunny.

I love these guys, my best friends.

Wellll

After the snow day I was seriously hoping for more snow the next day but NO and we had to go to school :/

And it was bloody boring then today was bloody boring.

OH and in photography/art I did a really embarassing sneeze and I barely know anyone in that class and it was awful, everyone was like who was that! And I was like mee :S

I HATE EMBARASSING MOMENTS. I keep thinking about them lately and then cringing because there so embarassing, I hate it when I'm like that.

CRINGE.

I'm really worried right now, my Dad is in hospital at the moment to do some tests and I'm freaking out because about a year ago my Dad had to go to hospital for like two weeks and urgh it was awful.

But hopefully the tests will be fine.

Well I have nothing else fun to say really. Except for I love Cameron(L) and that he is listening to me go on and on about how much of a baby I am and how scared I am.

AMAZING DAY

It was so lovely :')

EVEN MORE SNOW

OH YAH, even more snow today!

School is also cancelled! So it's snowball fights and making snowmen today!(:

Yayayayayay! x

SNOWSNOW

IT SNOWED TODAY!(: Twas really nice, I went to my dad's house and basically sat by the fire under a duvet eating chinese and pot noodles while watching Kung Fu Panda and then of course I played in the snow and got a very wet bum taking this picture!

Overall I had a lovely day and I now have four books to read Real World and Out by Natsuo Kirino, I got her other book Grotesque at the airport just cause I was curious and omg now I'm like addicted to her books, they are so unusual/sick yet fantastic. I also got The Diary of Anne Frank simply cause I had to it's like a classic book and the story sounds good plus I missed the TV programme): And Battle Royale cause I watched the movie a few weeks ago at my friends and it was pretty immense so I decided to get the book as it must be much better.

I'm reading Real World right now and I'm basically all set for the next few months! YAAAY! I'm such a nerd.

Hopefully the snow will get really thick and I won't have to go into dreaded school tomorrow and go towning instead! YAAAAAY!(: