Hiyaaaaaa

you know I said in my last post I will do a 'lighter, nicer post later on' well I lied cause I'm in a crap mood again.

Doesn't feel like anyone wants to tell me anything anymore, the two main boys in my life atm are a bit off with me and I feel like complete shite.
Mmmmm, at least it friday tomorrow and I have most if not all of my coursework done and dusted :)

But I just went outside on the trampoline and it's strange whenever I'm on my trampoline I just feel so bloody happy, I love looking at the beautiful sky while the planes fly by. I always feel like life is perfect when I'm on that bouncy thing.
Aahah I'm a strange girl.

Well I'm finished with my rant.

Mmmmmmm :/

I can't take trying to compete for your affection anymore it's too hard for me. All I want is attention of of you but it feels like I have to earn it. I just want you to be close to me, not anyone else. You tell everyone else you love them yet apparently I mean more. Doesn't feel that why mate.


I was also looking around on the networking sites I use and realised the words 'I love you' are used why too much. Most just to random people. The words mean nothing anymore, it's depressing really. I'm probably being a hypocrite here as well cause I probably do it, well I'm gonna stop.

I'm not in the best of moods as you can probably tell, I'm sorry.
I will do a lighter, nicer post later on.


See's yazzz laterzz

Amazing weekend to the maxxxx

Friday night had a sleepover with Kate, Thea, Nikki and Ben. As it was celebration of Kate's birthday. I LOVE HER.

Then went to town and meet up with Cameron, Mattie and other people, had an amazing lovely day seriously!

I love Cameron and Kate so much.

Then I had another sleepover at Thea's house last night, watched a lot of Disney movies had epic fun :)
Then went into town and met up with Rachael and Mattie. Had more epic fun.

Amazing weekend filled with lovely people!
But I need sleep now, so I'll be off to bed soonish.

I recommend that EVERYONE should get Fightstar's new album 'Be Human' it's freaking amazing. Never heard such a good album. Mattie and Cameron are at one of their concerts like right now, lucky bitches ¬¬
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cJ5BfhdEv6s That is a taster to their one of their newer singles. That song creates so many emotions for me I can't explain it and the video is even better. As much as I love Charlie Simpson (I mean by God I do) he doesn't look that great in the video.

Anyway I think imma come off now ;D
I LOVE YOU GUYS

I don't get it

how come I feel really happy once I get home and I'm in an amazing mood and then suddenly my mood goes down hill and I feel so shit and can't stop crying.
Puberty=shit ;D

Has anyone ever heard the song, Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls?
A BIT AMAZING. I used to listen to it when I was younger and I've just got it again and it just brings me to tears of happiness :')

Well stuff at home isn't the best at the moment, due to the recession and such. I really hope this money situation gets better. My Step-dad is still at work now and it's 20 to 10pm and I don't think he'll be back for a while. He's trying to work as many hours as he can.

I feel like having a big cuddle with someone, any offers?

Basically

I had a lovely last day of the holidays and I don't really mind going back tomorrow.
I have all of my coursework done and I'm happy ^-^

HIYAAAAAAAA

PINK WAS FUCKING AMAZINGGGGGGGG!
Seriously so freaking amazing, we got there like half an hour after the doors opened and there wasn't many people there, but there was an awful lot of lesbians :L
We were quite close but not the closest but I did see her in the flesh and I had an amazing time. So amazing, I'm going again to see her in December at the o2 arena ;D
I'll put some pictures up:






And here is a link to the video of some of the concert and us on youtube:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8rRysiX53A0
Sorry about my sisters crap editing BTW ;D

Anyway we didn't get back till like half 3 in the morning and I was well tired the next day but I went to the park to see Cameron, was a bit boring and the weather was nastyyy. But I love Cameron so it's alright! He wanted me to come back to his house cause it was boring in town but I couldn't so I walked home which was a long way away. I saw Mattie and Ryan on the way. Mattie looked rough and we talked about his antics of the night before ;)
He was a tad drunk and basically did some stuff! He is only 14! My little brother he is, well not really :L

So then on Saturday I went to town with basically everyone.
Thea, Nikki, Rachael, Eliott, Mattie, Kate. We all had a big best friend day and it was fucking the best! I love those guys so much plus the sun was shining.
Cameron was up the park and got drunk with this guy called Aiden, so I was basically ignored by him all day.

And today I went to my Dad's house and went to my big sisters and then had a lovely dinner with my family! Nice day.

AND TOMORROW IS, the last day of the holidays ):
But I'm making the most out of it and going to town and park with Nikki and meeting Cameron and Mattie later on, as they fail and have school ;D

HOPE EVERYONE IS DOING WELL!

OH MY

I'M SEEING PINK TONIGHT, YES THIS VERY NIGHT!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ;D
In four hours we'll be getting in the car to go to Birmingham! Gosh this is exciting!

EVERYONE HAVE A LOVELY DAY

Hiyaaaaaa

Sorry for not updating.
On Monday I did nothing in the day, cause I couldn't be bothered to go out, but I did have a sleepover in a tent with Thea and Kate which was really nice, but I was freaking cold to be quite honest.
Then the next day me and Kate met up with Mattie in town we went to the park and sat and talked for a little while in the sun and then we decided to get something to eat so we went to Burger King we saw Cameron on the way out of the park with a funny straw hat on. He was like where are you going and I was like something to eat and he was like you better come back up. Made me feel a bit loved.
So we ate, I had some chips as usual. While we were walking to the park Mattie gave me two dead arms ¬¬ and it hurt ><. When we go there, literally everyone was there. I sat with Cameron and I sat back to back with him. We basically listened to his iPod together all day in the lovely sun.
Then the drug dealer came along again and he is really strange and skitty. He tried to steal Cameron's iPod and Mattie's phone. So Cameron was like I'll sit next to you cause you don't like him and I was like aaawww.
I also told Cameron that Mattie hurt me and he made Mattie stop flirting with this girl who looked like Effy from skins to come over to him and he punched him in the arms it was funny. It's lovely to think he would literally do anything for me, that sounds twisted but I kinda get that it's true. I actually really miss him today.
Then we decided to go to the toliet and no toliet roll was in there ¬¬
Stupid toliets and then we thought we should really go!
I got home and basically did nothing, then I had a lovely chat with Ollie on msn till 3am, I only woke up like a few hours ago.
And I'm just getting doing loads of stuff I've been meaning to do like this ;D
I'm now waiting for my hair to dry so I can go outside and do my art coursework.

OH AND I'M GOING TO SEE PINK IN CONCERT TOMORROW, FREAKING YEAH.
I'M SO FREAKING EXCITEDDDDDDDDDDDD.
I'm non stop listening to Pink's new album so I know most of the words >.<
We are trying to get in the front cause we are standing up, I really hope I don't die while getting crushed aahahah.
Gonna be amazing, I'm going to try and take loads of videos and pictures of it to put on here ;D

Anyway, I think thats enough of an update.
I'll update on like Friday or something! I love you guys x

Mmmm :/

I wish you still sent me cute texts and constanly left me lovely comments.
I feel like you don't wanna ever talk to me anymore, that I bore you. That you might move onto someone else to become your bestfriend.
I really don't want that to happen to be quite honest ):

Monday, 2nd week of holidays

Okay well I can't be bothered to update at this moment in time.
I'll do it later.

HAPPY EASTERRR

Hope everyone is having a lovely easter time so far!

Well yesterday I went to town with Cameron, Kate, Thea + Anthony.
Cameron decided to get drunk on beer. I was pissed off and hungry so we got some burger king and then we came back sat in the shade on the bottom of the hill as it was real sunny, Mattie, Jherek and Jack came along and talked to us for like ages. Mattie kept throwing grass down Thea's dress cause he's a pervy flirter (I love him really)
Then Sam came over and told me Cameron punched him in the face and told him to leave me alone, I really don't like him >.<
Then Cameron called me really drunk and was like 'Where are you?!'
And I was like 'We're only down the bottom of the hill'
He said 'Well come up here now!'
And I was like 'Why?'
He said 'Cause I don't know where you are and ARGH'

So I went up the top of the hill and sat next to Cameron, he kept falling over and he made his bad hand bleed again so he could put blood on my white, cleanish shoes ¬¬
But I let him cause he's my best friend ^^

We decided to go to get more food, me and Cameron had a conversation about who should die first out of the two of us. He made me pinky promise that I won't die.
Then I met my spider friend Harry and played with him for ages while Cameron was trying to sober up but failed. He burnt some kids hair with his lighter (by accident) and punched some guy in the face.
It was a bit funny.

Near the end of the day, some people called Mattie up and told him they wanted to beat him up, but nothing happened. Cameron climbed a tree and couldn't get down and then it was our que to go.

Then I got home, was gonna go round Cameron's house couldn't. So I was megaaa bored, so Mattie called me and keep sending me links to lesbian porn ¬¬
But he found it funny.

Well that's the end of it.
I probably bored you, but this is for my sake so I can remember the good times as well.
SOO BYEEEE.

Well it's Friday!

This is where I went today:


I went to this farm with my family.
There were two little shetland ponies called Bella and Teddy, there were adorable.
And there was this huge white house called Mac and he was a bit scary, hehe.
There was also two more but I don't remember their names, they were all so gorgeous and makes me wish I was still riding horses.

Teddy:


Mac:




I basically did nothing the rest of the day, couldn't be bothered to do anything.
But tomorrow I'm going into town to see Cameron ;D

Cameron has been so lovely to me lately, as I didn't feel all to good earlier. He was telling me this song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CMbc7djkCq4
Represented what he would do for me and how much of a best friend I was. I do love Cameron to bits and I would do anything for him as well. I cannot wait to see him tomorrow.

Anyway, all good?

Thrusdaaaaayy

So to update on my holidays!
On Tuesday, I went to town again with Kate and Thea. We sat at the park and then we saw Mattie walking by himself so we were like come over here silly! And he was telling us how he had a fight with his Mother and so he spent the day with me and it was real lovely.
Then we went to asylum, which isn't as good as indie but was really good. But there was a few fights with the same people that hurt my friend Jackson ¬¬
Punch this poor guy in the face and broke his nose! They need to sort themselves out. But I saw a few people I love, Cameron was there and he was enjoying came and danced with us as well. I called him an idiot cause he was wearing someone's hat >.< And he picked me up and spun me round lots scared the shit out of me xD
Here is a photo of us guys in the Asylum toilets:

Then on Wednesday I met up with Cameron, Thea, Kate, Maddi & Gryphen. Was a beautiful sunny day with lots of people in the park which was amazing. Cameron was told to hurt his hand real bad so he punched anything and everything in the park. I don't exactly know why? But it was funny, he thought he broke his finger though, it was just swollen in the end.
That night I had Thea & Kate over for a sleepover which was fun tiemss, we stayed in bed till 3pm the next day and then went into town for like 2 hours. Saw Cameron, Mattie, Jack and some other people. Cameron was lovely today came and talked to us lot, a lot today. Even though he took the laces out of my shoes ¬¬

And tonight I plan to stay up as late as I can and then lay in till late late tomorrow. GOOD PLAN, I think so (Y)

That was a big update! S'all goodddd, I'll update again soon!
Byee x

Mondaaaaaayy

So yeah!
Yesterday I went to the park as usual, the weather was beautiful again. I met up with Chelsea and Cameron with Thea and Nikki.
Then Mattie and Gryphen tagged along. We just sat on the hill all day really and had good times!
Was a lovely day actually, here are some pictures:




Then Me, Nikki and Thea went to this under-18's night and it was shite. So we went home early and today I stayed at home did a big clean out of my room and then I just went to see Kate for like an hour.
Hopefully doing something tonight and then tomorrow it's Asylum night ;D And I'm well excited ^^

HOPE EVERYONE IS DOING WELL!

YES SO

Here is some photo's from before Indie last night.

Let's begin the blogging that I haven't done in a while! :O
It's the holidays now! :D

Last night I went to foam indie, an Under-18's nightclub thaang. Got completely drenched in foam and stood on in the process. A bit of a mosh going on. I had to elbow a guy in the stomach at one point cause he kept stepping on me >.<
I also saw a lot of people I miss dearly. I had good times to be honest.

Then I got home in soaking wet clothes and my Mother was like CHANGE NOW so I did and I ate some buttered toast. Then I went to bed. I woke up in the morning to a semi sunny day and I put on the music channels and opened my curtains wide it was bliss and I had a good feeling this holiday is gonna be amazing.

I went to town and the park. It was so very sunny by then and now I'm sunburnt on my cheeks ¬¬
It was gorgeous and I saw Cameron who I miss lots. But then I had to go home to see my Nan and now I'm sitting here on a Saturday night doing NOTHING, while all my best friends are doing stuff without me :/

Tomorrow me, Nikki + Thea are walking into town and it's gonna take around 2 and a half hours but we figure it'll be fun!